2004-01-07 - 10:02 p.m.

i want to scream, i want to scream until it stops, until the world stops until the waves of sound pass through the air and into my ear. striking my ear drums at right angles until all i hear is myself. the sound of myself breaking apart. coming apart at the seams, ripping apart, falling apart.


i don't know what's wrong with me. i don't know what's going on inside my head. i want to sleep through tomorrow and the next day and the next and not wake up until this goes away.

i'm afraid. afraid of myself.

i can't make sense and

i just.

just fuckoff.

my throat hurts and i


i'm having a

i think i'm going insane.

leave me here.

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